Why sooooooo difficult...

Ahhhhhhhh...why why why its so difficult for me to loose weights?????? :(

I felt so suffering to control myself from eating food I like. I felt so suffering by staring at the food but HAVE TO stop myself from ordering it AHHHHHHHHH kill me pleaseeeeeeee..

I am taking less rice, I am taking my dinner before 7:30pm, I am stopping supper AT ALL, I am doing exercise everyday..not extensive workout but still exercise though bleh....BUT I lost only 1 DAMN KG.....ONLY 1 after few weeks !!!!!!!!

Not that I want to be as thin as a bamboo...as thin as a model. All I want is just loosing some KGs so I can back to my original and somewhat healthier weight like what I had few years back. WHY IS IT SOOOOOO HARD :(

I feel like giving up.....huhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I hate Multiply

I hate hate hate Multiply...it's always taking forever to load. It SUX.

I can never be able to load it at home...was it my home connection's problem. Well maybe, but I CAN LOAD blogger, yahoo, hotmail...and even Facebook which is damn slow for me but at least it's able to load still BLAHHHH.

Maybe I can try load it in the morning then by the time I wana go to bed, I might be able to view it...DUHHHHHH

More or Less

My birthday falls on the horoscope with a balance sign and lately I did a test for a workshop to identify what a person I am. The result turned out to be balance as well. So I strongly believed I am a person that is striving for balance in everything.

For once, I used to be a person that was giving endlessly without hesitated how much I am getting in return. But as time goes by, I see myself gained nothing from it nor getting something equal. Therefore I don't see a point of myself continuing it anymore.

So...
If what I am giving is not equal to what I am receiving...
I am absolutely going to readjust and reconsider and make it balance.

I gave myself a new philosophy starting from now - I give what I get.

I saw...

Some times back in a morning on my way to work, I stopped at a traffic light. In front of me was a lorry full of boxes of fruits and there was a worker sitting at the back among the boxes with shelter. If not mistaken is a foreign worker with dark color skin =P

Out of a sudden, he opened box by box...."taxing" some fruits from each box -.-" I could see his favourite is grape WAHAHAHA. Or maybe just because grape has the smallest size which people wont be able to notice the missing of some of them. lol I could also see him enjoying the "taxing" =P

I wonder how the boss gonna react if he/she found out one day or he's actually allowed to do so...BLEH.

It's just another day

Today might be a very important day for some people. A day to "show" their love =P A day for a girl to know how "important" or how "much" they worth in the heart of their lover =P

To me, its just another day like usual. I am not those kind that must receive flower, gift and go for expensive dining which I felt not pretty worth it. And frankly, I don't have any special feeling for this day haha. I think I never received any flower on this day too...no I should say through out my life LOL. Oh wait...no, I did on my convo WAHAHHAHA. People who knows me well, know pretty clearly that I do not like receiving flower bouquet. Yes this is true, and I am not just SAYING it but feel like getting desperately in heart like what guys normally said about gals - "say one thing think the other way round". But well, different people has different preferences and thinking of course. I would prefer if receive CASH instead BUAHAHAHA.. $_$

If you have the special someone whom you really happy and in love with, you'll feel happy no matter when, where and how. And by just spending some precious and quality time together would be more than enough to celebrate the special day. But if you're not really happy with that someone, you wont feel anything no matter what he does and buy you.

Hmmm so, my feeling-less is due to the 1st or 2nd reason. No comment...BLEH

Anyway, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all the lovely couples out there =)

Some pictures during CNY

Haiz, time really flies and so fast CNY has came to an end for 2009. Did some photo shootings this year and my pathetic skill still need rooms of improvement =P

Needless talk more...let the pics do the talking again hehe.

CNY 7th Day - The event near Chulia Street (sorry, i forgot the street name lol)

Spot the Penang C.M. competition....easy job lah the head so big and obvious. Opsss sorry I didn't mean the CM's head is big...i meant I shot quite a near distance so all the heads are quite easy to spot....wahahahaha =P

CNY 9th Day - Pai Ti Kong. This is a tradition for Hokkien people and majority of Penangites are Hokkien.

Last but not least, the "famous" shooting spot - Kek Lok Si temple.

Btw, everywhere I go I saw lots and lots of SLR users with very the canggih gadgets and nice lenses =P Made me this lousy pathetic beginner so damn paiseh haha. Seems like more and more people own SLR nowadays and its so common. I guess soon enough it'll come to a trend where everyone owns a SLR and not just digi cam anymore. Owning a digi cam is no big deal at all and I believed most people have at least one at home =P

Anyway, if you are interested to view more of my pathetic works =P there are more on my flickr

Hope everyone enjoyed your CNY :)

Bloggin outside g hotel grand ballroom

Tonight, i am supposed to be his assistant...or maid of the nite i should say =p help carry the bags, hold the light whenever he needs it and so and so. I voluntered initially to help thinking it would be fun. But too bad, it wasnt fun as i thought. Shooting a fren's wedding is fun n i really enjoved but a wedding which there's nothing n no one familiar to me was a little bored me out. Maybe it'll be different story if i am the official photographer =P

Sorry mr. Poi guess u picked a wrong persom...i m not helping at all bleh. Another thing, whats wrong with a lady shooting wedding? All those ppl i dun even know staring at me the whole nite like i m a weirdo =s so, halfway i quit...n bloggin outside the comfy couch wif my phone connectin to g hotel's wireless =p

Life or Death

Yesterday I witnessed something I never seen before through out my life, something carved pretty deeply in my mind...we might have seen enough of road accidents and most of the time I chosen not to see if possible. But not yesterday, I had no way to avoid and I couldn't close my eyes...cos I was driving and it was just right in front of my eyes.

I was driving out from Ipoh heading home...right after the Ipoh Toll, there were some road constructions there. I was slowly speeding up as there were some cars in front queueing up. Out of a sudden, I saw a car in front flying up high and turning in the air...yes flying up high above the other cars (I can't think of any other word to describe it). It was about 8 cars beyond me. My brain was all blank that moment and what I knew was only screaming. The car turn one round in the air, hit the center divider then turn another round with flames came out from it then dropped on the construction site. All of us behind got pretty shocked and scared and slow down. Some of the cars stopped aside, wondering should they go and help. The car's engine was still flaming when I past by. I didn't stop and I dare not stop and I didn't want to further congest the traffic and I slowly drove away. That moment I hope and I pray that the people inside is doing fine. We couldn't see how many people was in there and we didn't know how he/she/they doing as the car was slanted the other way...all we could see were the tires and the damaged engine.

I flipped through the newspaper today first thing in the morning, hoping to see some news about it but there is none. Another thing lucky is, the car didn't fall and drop backwards. Else there would be more victims as there were quite a number of cars right behind...

All is hope now is for the people in the car to be safe...

UPDATE: And...something even more horrible is when I told someone about it. That person asked me "did u take pic?? did u take video" and not "how do u feel now? r u doin alrite?" Now I know how much that person actually "cares" WTF